No Connection

The last couple of days I have been hibernating in my bedroom because I  don’t want to see the light.

I keep on thinking to myself what am I going to do in April 2011?

The reason I am bored with university is because this is the second time around for me.

I want my life to mean something, I want to make a difference in this  world.

I know I sound corny, but it is true.

I want my life to have  a sense of direction, focus, and purpose.

I thought returning to York University and working towards a second degree would provide this purpose.

However, now I feel deflated, and fatigued.

I wonder if I am wasting my life?

I already have a B.A. degree in history, but two years ago I decided to return to the academic world.

York University is a business and the purpose of the company is to expand the brand.

We are taught to believe that a university education is very important in order to become a proper citizen.

If a university degree is so important, why am I still struggling?

How can I change it for the better?

Employers don’t really care about university degrees they care about work experience.

I wonder if I made a mistake returning back to York University?

I feel exhausted at times in lectures listening to information I really don’t care about.

Yes, I am volunteering at a non profit agency for almost a year.

I do feel I am hopefully making a difference in the lives of the residents I work with every week.

However, I am bored. I am tired of listening to entitled middle class youth talk about revolution.

The last month of university starts in a few weeks and I know I’ve got to keep up my time management skills.

I am bored with studying, writing essays, attending lectures, listening to analytical discussions from wannabe know it all students.

You know, the kind of people who believe since they  memorized French philosopher Michel Foucault or lesbian academic Judith Butler works they know something.

I wonder though, what I am learning? Is the information I am studying really constructive and applicable to the real world?