Should I Ask Pedro If He Still Has Feelings For Me?

I received a text message Sunday evening from an ex of mine Pedro. The text message said ” have a happy Thanksgiving and lots of hugs”.

In July, Pedro sent me another text message “I certainly don’t hear from you at all Orville.”

I didn’t know what to say? I didn’t respond to his text in the summer.

I know Pedro cares about me and I care about him. I just don’t know if I am in love with him anymore? I feel like what Pedro and

I had is in the past. I feel like that part of my life is over. When I first met Pedro I was young, naive, and very emotional.

I just thought the text message was weird. I feel like Pedro wants a connection with me but he doesn’t want to get “too close” to me.

I also feel like I don’t want to get too close to Pedro either.

I don’t call Pedro because I don’t want to go back to 2002.

The sex was pretty good. How can I possibly forget that?

I have to say Pedro is probably one of the best lovers I have ever had in my life!

Pedro was a very attentive,  tender, sensitive, lover.

But sex isn’t everything that’s for sure. A relationship can’t just  be based  on sex.

I also don’t want to hurt Pedro’s feelings I really do care about him as a person.

Pedro says we are now “friends” but I don’t see Pedro as a “friend” I see

him as an “ex boyfriend”. People always “gasp” when I tell them that Pedro is fifty six but so what? Age is nothing but a number right?

Why didn’t Pedro simply call and say happy Thanksgiving? I don’t understand him?

I remember a few years ago Pedro suggested that I can “moving in” with him.

I said “no I can’t do that.”

Pedro is gorgeous though, he definitely doesn’t look fifty six. Pedro is a strong man, he’s in excellent physical condition, beautiful smile,

he has beautiful black hair, a nice golden tan. Yes Pedro is a hunk!

There is another side to Pedro, he’s kind of mysterious. The reason we didn’t work was because I felt he wasn’t honest with me.

The reason why I broke it off with Pedro is I felt he was constantly lying to me.

Maybe Pedro is lonely or something or he is in some dry spell?

I felt like Pedro wouldn’t open up to me about his inner most thoughts, his feelings, and emotions.

The best way to describe Pedro is he  looks similar to Antonio Banderas except Pedro is Portuguese and not Spanish.

Anyway, Pedro is also fifty six he’s turning fifty seven in December so there is a twenty four year age gap between us.

Pedro has always been very nice to me, he has always encouraged me, and been very positive towards me.

The last time I saw Pedro was on September 21st we met on Church Street to celebrate my birthday.

I care about Pedro, but I am not sure exactly what he wants?

Maybe Pedro was simply being nice?

Maybe Pedro just wants to be a part of my life ?

Although I personally don’t believe a person can really be “friends” with an ex but that’s my personal opinion.

I have fond memories of the time I shared with Pedro we dated about seven years ago.

Pedro has always kept in contact with me and he is a very nice man.

But at the back of my mind I wish he was younger. I wish Pedro wasn’t fifty six, I wish he was in his early thirties. I wish he was

just a bit younger maybe then we could have started a life together.

Pedro is divorced, he has two adult aged children and I think he’s still having problems with his ex wife.

I think I would make a serious move on him if was younger. But then I think age is just a number. Does age really matter?

Does it really matter that Pedro is fifty six? Maybe I am making a big deal out of nothing? Or maybe I am using Pedro’s age as an excuse?