My New Attitude Just Go For It!
I just decided I think I am afraid of things sometimes for no reason. Actually, I started to improve I would say in December 2007 when I finally decided to start getting my life together. I still get insecure and I have self doubts I am not perfect that’s a fact. The feelings of self doubt turn into emotions of self loathing and despair. I have been plagued with self doubts and social anxiety for most of my life. Today I just decided I need a new attitude. I am so sick of all the self sabotage that has made me more isolated and unhappy.
I am not a scary person or anything I am an individual that does suffer sometimes from low self esteem and low self confidence. I am a work in progress. I am going to start reading some more self help books on how to improve my self esteem.
I now realize if I want anything in life I just have to believe in myself more and try. My sister says if I don’t try hard enough I will never know she has a point. I haven’t reached my potential at all. I am not satisfied with my life and I want more. I am trying harder to become a better more evolved person.
Gayblackcanada 
The first thing, you got to love is yourself; then everything you do after that is the birth of what the best out of you.
Hi,
I just found your site, and it has given me newfound hope. I just read this post. Couldn’t help but notice that you say, “My sister says if I don’t try hard enough I will never know she has a point.” I feel, though, that you already acknowledge that, which is the first step toward recovery.
I have gone through self-confidence issues, eating issues, severe depression (which I believe was purely biological, but bad self esteem couldn’t help).
You have to just start off, gradually, to believe that you acquired self-worth just from the status of being alive. Your actions should not have anything to do with your worth as a human being. Be cocky, don’t listen to people who mention your “inferiority” in any ridiculous way, and know deep down what incredible spirit you have. It takes an amazing amount of gradual work, but it seems as though you understand what your problem is. Gather the strength; you should be your own best friend regardless of the ideal of how you think you should view yourself (based on accomplishment, social status, etc.).
Let me know how it goes. I truly appreciate your writing and hope that you continue to enlighten us about the disparity of equality between the way lesbians and gays are portrayed on TV, feminism, etc. Take care. It all starts with you.