Weight Loss Update: I Lost Eleven Pounds In The Past Two Months!!!

Today I had a doctor’s appointment so I was a bit nervous. I haven’t bothered to go on the scale because I was so scared for a long time. For the longest time I have been terrified  about checking my weight because I just stand thinking about possibly gaining weight. The unknown is better for me because I can relax a bit and just workout without trying to focus on numbers.

I was stunned when my doctor told me since April 2008 I have lost eleven pounds! I was worried for no reason at all I am definitely losing weight at the same pace as earlier in the year.

I thought I had lost only between three to six pounds but I am so thrilled! My doctor also informed me that I now weight 194 pounds. I started to work out in December 2007 and now I have lost forty one pounds in six months! I am cognizant of the fact I am average height I am only five feet eleven inches tall. I have broad shoulders so although weighing 194 sounds like a lot for me that’s actually very good. I definitely much fitter now and lighter. I don’t feel tired during the afternoon and I have much more energy.

My doctor says he is proud of me for sticking with my weight loss program. I actually do feel really good. I feel like I have more self confidence and esteem. I usually have issues with my body image and self esteem but today I feel really good. I am a work in progress. There are still times when I hate myself and I refuse to look into the mirror. There are still moments when I want to destroy the mirror with my fists and smash the glass into a billion pieces. I still wish I looked perfect but I guess I just got to keep on trying. I still don’t have the rock hard abs or the perfect body.

I worked out every single day since last week Monday so today I have decided not to workout. However, tomorrow I will back on the treadmill, lifting weights, completing push ups, sit ups, and leg curls. The important thing I have to remember is just to keep it up. I also have to remember to keep on eating rice cakes, oatmeal, continue to cut down on my sugar intake, and stay away from salt. I must confess I still have a weakness for ginger ale! I love ginger ale but I also realize it is important to live a little and moderation is the key.